I feel like I don’t write enough lately. At least not in anyway that people can easily track. The life-work balance is, as predicted, tricky. I find that when I have a day off, I don’t want to write. As much as I love it, writing is work, and I just want to relax. Let my muscles recover from the hard week. Zone out while watching tv shows. Hang out with friends. Blow off steam.
In my last roughly written article “Your Own Personal Facebook” I mentioned an idea I had regarding writing a self-help book of some kind. It’s not really a new idea. I had thought about writing a self-help book a while back called “Leveling Up” intended to put advice like how to go about finding yourself, navigating social interactions, and reaching your career potential in terms that gamers would understand.
The slogan for the book, website and social media presence was going to be something like, ‘you can’t level up without gaining experience’. The idea that failure allows you to learn more than getting it right the first time was going to be a recurring theme. In many role-playing gaming systems, your character gains experience points during the adventure. When you have enough points you can level up, gain new permanent skills and bonuses.
I love this analogy for life, as imperfect as it is. In real life we don’t suddenly find ourselves able to understand animals because we killed enough goblins. We can suddenly find ourselves able to use a computer system easily after having struggled with it for weeks though. There are other examples in which something that was once hard suddenly becomes easy. The first few weeks of working behind a bar again would leave me so tired and sore that I thought I’d do permanent injury to myself. Now it’s easier. It doesn’t wreck me like it did.
I’m definitely going to write this book, or something very like it. I’m so eager to do so that I didn’t want to go to work today. Except I still want to save up enough capital to self-publish if I have to. Plus I was hoping to bump into someone again. A professional ghostwriter. I was hoping to ask him about how he got into it. There’s lots of stuff online about becoming a ghostwriter, but most of it seems to be trying to sell you something. I would like to hear from someone who has successfully made a career out of writing, how they did it. I’ll let you know more if it ever comes to anything.
I did go to work. The front door to the pub was closed when I got there, so I went in through the kitchen. I told the first fellow member off staff I saw that the door was still locked. Then I proceeded to remove my coat and hoodie, clock in, find my fob, and head down to the bar. The door was still locked, but I checked behind the bar to see if anything needed taking care of there first. That’s when the owner came downstairs and saw the door was still locked.
He was not happy. Now bear in mind it was 11am. He’d been there since 6:30am, and yet it was my fault the door was still locked. He admitted that he had forgotten, but he expects anything that gets missed my him to be done by the person coming in at 11. If the door isn’t open then we can’t get customers, without customers we don’t stay in business. He told me that he didn’t understand why people don’t care that the pub stays in business, and expressed that he doesn’t want to pay people that don’t care about the business.
I understand perfectly why he cares so deeply. This is his passion, his love. He has dedicated his life to making The Brown Cow Inn successful, and I admire him for that. I didn’t tell him that I would’ve gotten to the door myself. I have no way of proving it. I also didn’t tell him that I’m only there to earn a wage. I’ll do what needs to be done, but minimum wage isn’t enough to make me care. If the pub went bankrupt tomorrow, I would find another job.
There’s got to be a smarter way to earn money that isn’t so physically demanding and exhausting. At least I don’t feel like I’m doing anything unethical. I don’t need to lie to my customers, or convince them to pay for anything they can’t afford. I have done both those things for past employers.
If I can sacrifice a bit of my leisure time I can get Levelling Up written. I can use the money from selling it to keep me afloat while I write what I really want to write. The Hermes-Branchpoint series. Speaking of which, I think Hermes 911 will explore the legal system of the N•Viron centric society of earth, not follow around futuristic cops in the Alpha Prime colony.
I’ve written some of Hermes 360 and some more of Hermes 925 too, I just haven’t published it digitally yet. I’m going to try and get that done this week. I’m also going to try and avoid feeling guilty if I end up doing something else. I haven’t spoken to my co-admin William about our Games and Geekery blog for weeks. It’s in dire need of new articles and a little TLC.
Anyway, I think I’ve been talking about writing long enough. I need to get it done. Or go to bed, because it’s midnight and I have to do another 11am-9pm shift tomorrow. I get an hour off from 4-5pm, but I probably won’t actually get to leave until after 10pm. It gets to be a long day.